10 August 2008

me: when you wake up to pee tonight, text me, so i know you're ok. and first thing when you wake up

4:16 am
i'm ok na

6:36 am
good morning. it must have been the crying

me: you were crying? why?

7:38 am
what you are going through now

me: i've ignored the issues too long. catching up on me. i'm so talo in all this.

7:42 am
hay

7:52 am
i love you

me: that's actually more the problem than a solution. look, bottom line is, i should know my place. i did before. but lately nga, i actually began to take heart what you were saying. and i stated thinking i was more than what i am. which makes me bad at being 2nd fiddle. i started to think, unconsciously, i was a solosit when really, my only job was to be back up. i just have to remind myself, that no matter what you tell me, at the end of the day, you're still a married man who loves his wife. and i'm still nothing but the proverbial third wheel who doesn't belong in the picture.

8:21 am
don't know how to react to that. can't really say anything more than what i earlier texted. sorry, if no discussion on my end.

me: no discussion needed. was just thinking out loud. go be with your family. its a sunday.

9:11 am
you don't have to reply. do you still love me?

me: yes. that's the other half of the problem.

9:13 am
you can't say it na? if no, i will understand

me: i love you **.

9:15 am
i love you princess

me: squeeze me in later. let's talk.

11:13 am
i will cancelmy 3pm

m: don't cancel if its important. and don't freak out like the time we met up in shang makati.

11:38 am
i'm fixing my schedule. will text you later re: time if schedule ok with you.

me: my entire afternoon is free. you just need to let me know when. if its too hassle for you, we can talk another time.

11:40 am
of course. not hassle. i won't freak out

me: ok. just text me plans.

me: you home na?

me: my tita asked if you were going to sponsor 40th day. haha! i sid no. too jahe. told her i shouldn't have told you about the abuloy story cause you were super hiya. then she asked me if you were interested in me. i said, no. you're just really nice to everyone.

me: what are you doing? i have a massive headache.

12:45 pm
lunch here at nanay's. ikaw? take meds for headache

me: i left chapel. went to the car to cool off. dami tao. init. no meds now. headache because of my other meds.

12:48 pm
i almost forgot to take meds this morning. meds ka na?

me: yes. why do you forget? don't you have a reminder alarm or something?

12:49 pm
no alarm. somebody used to remind me everyday

me: i'm sorry

12:50 pm
just teasing. sa car ka lang?

me: yes.

me: am in my mom's house na. just waiting for your text.

2:09 pm
is 3:30 pm ok with you?

me: ok. where? shang?

2:16 pm
ok. call you when i leave house

me: text. don't call when you leave.

2:28 pm
will just take a shower then leave na. do you still have headache?

me: no na.

2:30 pm
sandali lang. naka hubad na ko

me: ok.

2:33 pm
ok

2:49 pm
just left house

2:55 pm
did you leave pasig na?

3:01 pm
im at mall na

me: that was quick. ten minutes.

3:05 pm
did you get my text that i left house?

me: unit *** manila ****** condominium, ***** drive, corner **** ****, ortigas

4:47 pm
copy

5:44 pm
what are you doing?

me: shopping. went back to office warehouse and iora along libis. you?

5:48 pm
fitness 1st. papunta ka na pasig?

me: after. just paying. maybe pass by sm hypermart to get javi ice cream.

5:53 pm
ok. text me

me: wag na lang yun experiment.

7:01 pm
cancel na lang. just curious. why?

me: nothing. naisip ko lang

7:07 pm
ok. **** will asked your help on n*c-*p**. she has draft opinion. she has to submit it tom.

me: truth? i kinda miss you. didn't see much of you last week. so if you have time within the week to see me, it would be a total bummer if you couldn't just because of the experiment. yun lang.

7:08 pm
i missed you too

me: that's the one i told you i needed to speak to ***** frst. will look at her draft then will call him na lang tomorrow.

7:12 pm
ok thanks

me: tuloy 8pm mo?

7:37 pm
i was about to text you. it got cancelled. can we makeout,i mean meet up?

me: ok. 845 ok? in san juan? :)

7:38 pm
ok. 8:45. parang you are not delighted?

me i am. that's the reason i text you.

7:40 pm
see you

8:23 pm
on my way

me: just leaving pasig.

8:28 pm
mauna pa ako san juan

me: sorry. will you pick me up or will we meet somewhere

8:30 pm
starbucks near xavier

me: ok

8:31 pm
ok.

8:35 pm
here na. drive safely. i'm ok

me: ok. in wilson na. will just drop off the kids.

8:37 pm
ok love

me: just dropped them off

8:44 pm
ok

10:29 pm
are you home na?

me: home na. you?

10:30 pm
near na

me: ok

10:52 pm
sleep na ko.

me: ok. goodnight. :)

10:56 pm
Night. I love you

me: love you too. :)

me: ws watching tv and saw and ad for skycable. it said, "i found love again." yes i did. lucky me. :)