Thursday, July 31, 2008

31 July 2008

7:13 am
good morning. are you up na?

me: a little

7:23 am
may i call to say good morning and i love you?

me: ok

10:51 am
leaving office by 11am

11:21 pm
just left office

11:26 pm
will text you

11:36 am
white plains

12:11 pm
as of now, no

2:11 pm
very much?

2:14 pm
i love you very very very much

2:17 pm
imagine i'm biting my lower lip

2:18 pm
i am so at home and at peace with you

4:10 pm
that's ok

4:13 pm
i love you

me: ok. thank you. glad to know you're on board. i love you too, **. :)

me: may i just say that your white hair is a turn on? weird. i don't know what's wrong with me. :) where are you?

4:29 pm
really? looking at treadmills and stepper for house. will go to meeting at 5pm

me: yeah. i'm weird. here na in o***.

4:30 pm
*** still there?

me: yes.

me: where's your 5pm?

5 pm
sulo. up to what time will you be there?

me: leaving now. staff is leaving na din. you need anything?

5:01 pm
nothing thanks. paano a **** opinion?

me: *ia said it will e finalized by 730 am tomorrow and she'll make it habol to you in shang. am reading opinion now. *ia emailed dsoft copy to me na din.

5:09 pm
ok princess. up to what time will you be there?

me: leaving na now.

5:10 pm
ok. where are you going?

me: shang **i's gift. you, what do you have after 5pm. home early to rest?

5:15 pm
not sure if my 7pm will push through

me: ok

me: where's your 7pm set tentatively?

5:22 pm
UCC at temple drive. what will you do after shang mall?

me: nothing yet. will pass by office. my table wasn't there last night. you want to see me no?

5:27 pm
i do but might go home to rest. i love you. you know that right?

5:29 pm
sometimes?

me: yes. sometimes. :) you should rest nga. you're tire and you look it. me, i'm still cute. older but definitely still cute.

me: did you know that tiffany is on sale? today? necklace is on sale! 50 off!

me: free engraving. should i engrave **i? or his nickname (won't that be too familiar? but more personal than his initials. )

5:41 pm
no engraving

me: why no engraving?

me: last day today. bought myself a necklage. :)

me: the one i want isn't on sale. so don't worry, you still have a chance to buy it for me.

me: argh! can i just bitch? i can't reach my driver. his phone keeps ringing but he won't answer. argh!

7:24 pm
parang ako kanina. haha

me: worse! i don't know where he is!

me: drivers usually hide in *e*a. was able to call the board alternate for *e*a. asked him to call the *e*a guard and tell driver to come fetch me. kainis.

7:42 pm
let me know what happens

me: hay, tinawagan na ako ng driver. naisilnt nya phone niya. :) i know why. his sm kept calling while he was driving for me. I noted he shut it off. :)

7:48 pm
i love you

me: love you too, **. *a**i* may have broken his toe again. hay...

7:54 pm
where is he?

me: home. he's crying buckets now. he has a game on saturday and he can't play.

7:58 pm
hay. where are yo na?

me: nahuli pa driver. kainis. had to show government registratin. arg. shaw na. in front of cherry.

me: *i*** the driver is so sweet. he just text asking if i got picked up na. :) may malasakit.

8:03 pm
think of happy thoughts -- our lunch, lamb, dessert, foie gras, me

me: what did you have for dinner?

8:05 pm
tinolang manok and oatmeal

me: good job. i love you **. :) really. :)

8:06 pm
i love you princess

me: home na.

8:19 pm
ok princess

8:59 pm
hello

me: hi. what you doing?
9:01 pm
flipping channels. biting my lip. thinking o you. missing you

me: stop with the lip biting. :) what's your day tomorrow?

9:09 pm
8am national************ administration at edsa shang then office; class at 2pm; 4pm office; 7 pm water (na naman)

me: why 7pm? so you're leaving office early? :(

9:12 pm
oo e.

9:18 pm
what are you doing?

me: watching tv. reading your texts. :) i'm glad we are what we are.

9:22 pm
shower saturday ha

me: ha?! pumayag na ba ako? ako shower, oo.pero just mo sumama?

9:23 pm
please.

me: what's in it for me? (** a**a voice)

9:30 pm
clean and wet sex

me: WHAAAAAAT!

9:31pm
that's what you will get

me: that's what you want. what do i get? me? DOMs make regalo. what's your regalo?

9:33 pm
bag

me: why do you want to get me a bag? you really want to get me one ba?

9:35 pm
matagal na. allow me na

me: what kind?

9:36 pm
mark jacob or bottega

me: you choose?

9:41 pm
sama ka bukas lunchtime when i buy?

me: makati ka ba lunchtme? who you having lunch with?

9:42 pm
you

me: ah! yey! :) really? yey!

9:44 pm
happy

me: yes. :) i like going out with you. hole in the wall. drive through jollibee. hotel expensive. :)

9:47 pm
anywhere

me: yup. anywhere. really. i enjoy spending time with you. i enjoy talking to you. :) baka nga sawa ka na... :(

9:49 pm
what time will you give comments to ***?

me: reading through it now. going slowly kc i have headache. give me 1 hour.

9:51 pm
ok. please let *** know. thanks. i'm not sawa

me: ok. ang haba. its 15 pages. this draft is your direction diba?

10:03 pm
yes love

me: :) i like it when you call me that. :)

10:04 pm
i love you,love

me: haha... mejo redundant, pero pwede na. :) i really like you bert. not everyone likes who they love. but you, i genuinely like you. you're old and funny. :)

10:08 pm
let's make love, love

me: why are you being so DOM lately? all bark nman, no bite. kaya m everyday for an entire week? i don't think i've done that.

10:12 pm
let me get fit first

me: hahaha! its a 24 hour break. is it that tiring for men?

10:18 pm
wouldn't know. i really love you

me: what do you mean you wouldn't know. you're a guy. does doing it really tire you out you can't do it once very 24 hours?

10:26 pm
i don' know really. no track record.

me: ok. but is it really tiring for you?

10:28 pm
yes

me: ok. i read about it in cosmo. very tiring for me. :) but you've done twice in a row twice already, once, you managed before sleeping and after waking up. and another time, two straight days. :) i'm sure you can handle 3 days in a row. may rest naman eh.

10:34 pm
lets do it

10:37 pm
sleep na ko love. night. i love you.

me: ok. night. i love you too. :)

me: are you still awake? re: *ia*

10:42 pm
why?

me: will email. hard to text. easier to type. wait a bit

me: i emailed you na.

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

30 July 2008

9:13 am
i love you very uch princess

10:06 am
ok

11:24 am
hello

11:27 am
yes. sleepy? tapos na board?

11:36 am
sittin in board. i'm sleepy

11:39 am
civil ********* ********* of the *********

11:41 am
ortigas in front of la salle

11:43 am
columbia tower

11:46 am
i want to sleep with you

12:04 pm
other way. haha

12:08 pm
people say, its nice to kiss and make up after a "fight"

12:10 pm
kaya nga "fight". may quotes. :)

12:44 pm
kiss and makeup na lang

4:35 pm
where?

4:52 pm
yes 7pm

5:37 pm
reception

10:04 PM
how different?

10:11 pm
maybe because of my drama and mood swing

10:14 pm
i love you more

10:18 pm
more than yesterday, more than in the past

10:19 pm
i'm looking forward to lunch tomorrow.

10:39 pm
flipping channels. just took a bath. on her forehead or cheeks.

10:48 pm
i will try to sleep na. night.i love you

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

29 July 208

4:57 pm
ok


5:53 pm
i'm not mad. you have your reasons. good luck on your firm.

6:07 pm
its really ok. let me know lang if you can help my firm on "*sal*" concerncs. wouldn't want you to be conflicted. this is professional and work. it might not be obvious but i also put up the firm for you.

6:17 pm
i know this is not responsive - i love you princess. i know you don't have to be reminded pero - ingat

6:40 pm
i just got home. thanks for invite.

6:49 pm
i have reacted na. don't worry about me. really.

7:08 pm
since when did you know about tonight's event?

7:18 pm
kaya pala you were dressed up? what are you doing?

7:19 pm
hello

7:25 pm
i'm sorry

7:26 pm
for not spending more time with you

7:37 pm
ok i love you.

7:38 pm
ok?

7:51 pm
i'm just in bed. not watching tv. not doing anything. what are you doing?

7:56 pm
good. enjoy.

7:58 pm
at least you are with friends. ako im sulking. haha

8:02 pm
can't. sorry. dont feel well. kinda feel low

8:02 pm
sorry

8:48 pm
sorry. dozed off. i'm reflecting lang on why you can't tell me stuff like your firm, your event tonight.

8:50 pm
ok. when we meet up next time

9:10 pm
yes

9:12 pm
lying on my side

9:17 pmn
i like lying on my side when i reflect

9:22 pm
yes. couldn't think of anything else since kanina pa. sorry.

9:32 pm
yes, my fault. haha

9:36 pm
been crying. haha. im not asking you to abandon your friends and your plans

9:40 pm
im really sorry

9:46 pm
you were scared because im a sap and cranky about things. i guess i deserve and asked for this.

9:49 pm
ok. i will stop na

9:52 pm
yes

9:55 pm
she was talking to j*ss**

10 pm
yes. my schedule tom. - 8 am at ucc on water; 10am at ****; 12nn on bulacan; 2 pmwith san miguel; 3:30 pm with ****; 4pm on souther ****; 5pm at fort on **** ec; 7:30 pm with jeremy, emily etc.

10:06 pm
from 12nn to 5 pm, all in edsa shange

10:10 pm
i will be fine

10:35
no. lying on my side. ikaw?

10:37 pm
i'm not mad. are you home na?

10:43 pm
Honestly, im annoyed about myself

11:58 pm
observation - i said i love you and no reply - either ilove you,me too,or thank you. again, its not complicated with me.

12:05 am
i need you princess. please believeme. i just don't want to put you in a compromising position with ***lm and your firm. if i'm wrong, then we can work togeter outside OGCC. i fully support plans Bs of other people. I have plan b and c myself.

12:18 am
i will support your other life. in my ownwy, i will refer cases to your firm. by helping your firm, i will help you. i understand why you have a plan b and why you kept it fromme and why you can tell others about it. i won't pry into your other life. i know you know this- you are under no obligation to share that life with me.

12:27 am
what i meant was opportunities. sorry.

12:29 am
yes, don't depend on me. you don' naman

12:3 am
i love you princess. i want to hug you now

12:40 am
night

Monday, July 28, 2008

28 July 2008

7:15 pm
Where are you na?

me: just passed park and fly. no check in so am hoping i will still be allowd on the flight.

7:17 pm
I'm looking for the moon now

me: stop it. :) too bad i wasn't able to give you a goodbye kiss. :)

7:19 pm
I know. at least, we saw each other

me: :)

[call, re: missed flight]

8:01 pm
what happened

me: still trying to re-book.

me: re-booked at 430 am

8:15 pm
you are going home pa?

me: oo naman. ayaw kong matulog d2.

8:17 pm
where are you na?

me: waiting to pay re-booking fee. you? home na?

8:19 pm
Meeting with ****, etc. at tektite

me: not yet done? wow. tagal naman.

9:32 pm
where are you na? Im so stressed and overwhelmed with work.

me: oh no. :( how can i help? other than not to contribute?

9:34 pm
1 of those times, naiiyak ako sa pressure. are you home na?

me: not yet. hay nako ****. would make out with you if i could to relax you... hahaha... but seriously, what can i do?

9:28 pm
nothing. just tell me you love me. seriously, that will help

me: i love you **. with all the love my heart can give under the circumstances. i never say it enough, but know i think it all the time. i even whisper it to myself after you hang up sometimes. :)

9:42 pm
i'm touched. naiyak naman ako with what you texted. i know and feel you really do. i love you very much princess. thank you for loving me.

me: :)

9:48 pm
malayo ka pa?

me: sorry i forgot to text you i was home na. needed to pee badly. got home when you texted that all you needed was for me to text you i love you. :)

10:02 pm
what are you doing?

me: i have this huge singaw. trying to put medicince while watching tv. you?

10:04 pm
sulking in bed

me: oh no. she there with you?

10:08 pm
sleeping

me: ok. i just don't want you to get caught and have to make a choice. i dont want to be at the losing end of that, even if i know i obviously am.

[call, re: where did that come from]

me: i really wish i were there with you

10:26 pm
if we were together, what wil. you do to make me feel better? yes, i'm fishing

me: truth? depends on your mood. i'll start off by asking you what's wrong, and if you want to talk about it, like i always do. then, i'd just lay there beside you, hugging you from th side, like we were watching the movie.l same thing, i'll kiss your ear, and your face. hold your hand. :) i'll make out with you if you're in the mood. :) :) :)

10:34 pm
puede whip cream?

me: haha! sinabi na nga ba eh. please don't purposely put yourself in a bad mood next time i see you as an excuse for whipped cream... DOM! :)

10:38 pm
shower again?

me: well, pag may whipped cream, it has to be washed off. so they really go togther.

10:41 pm
yehey

me: :) wait, theoretical yun ah. premised on what i'd do to cheer you up if we were together.

10:45 pm
please

me: what do i get in return? and i don't mean your undying love and devotion. that's a pre-req. in ** ****'s world, parating may kapalit.

10:56 pm
nice bag ok?

me: you know, i really don't want an expensive bag. totoo? i just want you to gt me that lancel bag for my cheap computer. so i'm done with the bag. what i really want is for you to do things with me. like lunch on thursday is good. and you promised you'll take me to a movie. tagal na nun. and 24 hours. and i want more full saturdays. i have you on loan. anytime, pwede kang bawiin. i want you to be so dnd that you can't imagine life without me.

110:05 pm
im so dnd. i love you so much. were you able to open pdg file? i just looked at the moon

me: yeah. dndlang. but not indispensable. before i'm done with you, you won't be able to take a breath without thinking of me. :) yes, nabuksan ko.

11:11 pm
what are you doing?

me: looking at the pdf file. i can use this as my presentation. :) if we did this first, i wouldn't have missed my flight. :) kung pwede, papasundo ako sayo ngayon. Your fault.

11:17 pm
yes. my fault. sleep ka muna.

me: your fault na hindi mo ako masundo ngayon ha. not the jv. this would be college, picking up whenever. before i sleep, pretend you had to tell an old high school friend about me. what would you tell him, through text. be sufficiently flattering, but only truths. i don't like bullshit. :)

11:33 pm
i will tell him that i love this girl whom i fondly call princess who is actually a queen. she s pretty, kissable and huggable. she is intelligent but her handwriting is awful. she has nice singing voice but she does not dance. she takes care of me and makes me feel loved. se worries for me and does not want me to worry. i will him that last 12 july she told me she loves me.

me: :) :) your friend will think you are a sap. sleep na. malapit na din ako.

11:37 pm
i am a sap who is in love. night. please text me when you get to airport, right before you board plane, when you land, when you get to hotel.

me: i will ****. sending you lots of small kisses all over your face. night...

11:39 pm
i love you princess

Sunday, July 27, 2008

27 July 2008

8:04 am
good morning. i love you.

Saturday, July 26, 2008

26 July 2008

7:37 am
morning. just woke up.

7:38 am
i was up na

7:51 am
tuloy siyempre. 8:30am. Atty. ***** from mactan cebu ***** might call you

8:37 am
just left house. you?

8:38 am
ok

8:45 am
tapos na

8:50 am
oo nga

8:53 am
i know. sorry. are you dressed and ready to leave

9:03 am
reception

9:04 am
tapos na

9:05 am
i want to hug you na eh

9:11 am
call me when you are done

Friday, July 25, 2008

25 July 2008

5:49 am
good morning. wake up na. you have 7am mass.

6:09 am
have you taken a bath na? how are your 2 zits?

6:12 am
getting ready na rin. will leave house at 7 pm

6:14 am
i'm old and adorable.

6:14 am
ok

6:16 am
i love you too princess

6:38 am
meds? rules tonight at red box?

6:47 am
let's follow ***'s lead

8:22 am
say hi. haha

8:40 am
ok. dito na sila

10:05 am
office. ikaw?

10:17 am
call me when you can

11:19 am
may i call?

11:20 am
i miss you and i want to discuss your earlier text re ***

11:21 am
ok

11:33 am
why did *** say that? what is your reaction?

11:44 am
honestly, i do not have an answer to that now.

11:48 am
where are you? up to what time will you be there? how are your zits? do you miss me?

11:52 am
can you call?

11:53 am
ok

12:53 pm
200k ok?

10:04 pm
marami lang iniisip

12:13 am
i love you princess

12:16 am
me too. ano pinag usapan niyo?

12:18 am
i love you too.

12:37 am
house na

1:02 am
where are you na?

1:05 am
i like you too. sleep na ko. i love you. night.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

23 July 2008

6:57 am
Hello. How are you? i love you

me: hi. thank you. still sleepy.

7:07 am
ok. go back to sleep my princess

me: you at the office na?

7:08 am
house pa. getting ready

me: ok

me: i'm so sleepy. i have two zits pa.

7:27 am
call you in a bit

me: ok




1:56 pm
hello

me: hi. what are you doing?

1:58 pm
meeting with *****. **** was here kanina?

me: yes daw. he called me. thought i was going to be there.

3:34 pm
miss you

me: hindi halata

3:36 pm
where are you

me: *****. *** is telling jokes

me: your we roam box

4:14 pm
oops. will bring tomorrow.

me: ok

4:22 pm
what are you doing?

me: board resolutions. you?

4:28 pm
1 more meeting. might go home early. have headache.

me: ok. you do that.

5:34 pm
i miss you.

me: maybe. but parang more than just sad. maybe connected to my moodlast night. been thinking about why am sad. couldn't put my finger on it.

5:51 pm
i know why its sad different - because we didnt see each other

me: i know na. i couldnt feel you today. like it was all artificial.l you know how it feels when you touch something with latex gloves. its there. you feel the pressure the object exerts against your touch but you cant really feel it. ganun.

6 pm
in short, you miss me so much

me: you know what? its not even that. its just sad.

6:01 pm
ok

6:02 pm
what are you doing?

me: finishing board resolutions. this is a discussion topic, so don't throw drama on me. is renting really a good idea? apart from practicality aspct,why do you want to rent?

6:09 pm
so that we will have a 'home'

me: why?

6:10 pm
because we are 4

me: we made up the numbers. what does that, being 4 and renting, mean to you?

6:17 pm
commitment

me: but you seem lukewarm about it. and parang ang tagal mong inisip ang sagot. this is not a fishing question, is commitment something you really want or are ready for? or is it just something you feel you should put on the table because of the practicality of renting?



7:08 pm
sorry

me: for?

7:09 pm
calling you and saying the same thing

me: you're old. what can we do.

7:11 pm
yes

me: you know what, i think you're right. maybe i do just miss you. and am a bit tampo cause you haven't made time for me. i feel better now that you've made drama. sorry. am i giving you a hard time?

7:15 pm
sorry if i was not able to make time for you today

me: and yesterday

7:20 pm
i am very sorry. you are therefore correct in doubting me

me: is that sarcastic? thing is this, before, ok lang that we see each other outside of office once a week. but now, its different. even ifi see you in the office, parang its kulang. today, i didn't see you na nga,we didn't talk too much either.

7:23 pm
no sarcasm there. i am just truly sorry

me: ok. but don't be. its not kasalanan or anything

7:34 pm
i don't want making you feel sad

me: well, you did. but i'm ok na. if you're really committed to this, show me.

7:37 pm
so talagang kulang ang ginagawa ko?

me: not saying you are kulang. you've given more than you should. and am happy., but you're also promising more than befre. you're making level 4 promises. you've upped the ante. you have to follow through.

7:44 pm
i love you

7:45 pm
i love you

me: :) i love you too **.

7:49 pm
where are you na?

me: ten minutes away from home

me: am i becoming too demanding. that's why i always ask what level we're in, what framework we're using. so i know how to act and what to expect.

7:49 pm
you are not.

7:51 pm
have you taken your dinner

me: no. you?

7:53 pm
sinigang na salmon. what will you eat?

me: not really hungry.

7:54 pm
you eat. hindi puedeng hindi

me: i'm fat. i should be trying to lose weight, remember?

7:57 pm
eat something

me: does cheesecake count?

me: where in de leon?

me: disqualification?

8:03 pm
i'm looking

me: :) thi is cute. we're parang studying over text. hehehe...

8:13 pm
i'm still looking

me: ok

me: hindi ba under prohibition against more than oe position by appointive officials?

8:16 pm
chapter?

me: chapter 6, subsection a

me: its not about ex officio

me: did you get my email?

me: pwede na ba yun, prof ****?

9 pm
reading it

me: sorry

me: emailed na.

me: call me please

me: don't forward that, i will resend

10:52 pm
ok

11:03 pm
thank you. i love you.

11:05 pm
thank you. i love you.

11:34 pm
sana im in bed with you

me: with my kids?!? :)

me: dom intentions?:)

11:48 pm
just hugging
me: ok. let's try that once. hugging lang.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

no mrs.

Am just thinking out loud. I’ve been so caught up in the finding the apartment, moving from 3 to 4, and the fact na, sige, I admit, I’m DND.

But in connection with my texts the other night, about needing to slow down, I think that I should just stop being so sparkly eyed and kilig over the apartment thing. Its just a practicality issue. in which case, I think you should get a bare studio and furnish it with the basics. I’ll try to get the broker to agree on a less than a year lease. I withdraw my suggestion of purchasing. The car and credit card, of course, you shouldn’t get. That goes without saying. It was very nice though, thinking that someone would do that for me. :)

This is what I’m always trying to guard against: Getting so caught up with things that I forget who you are, who I am, our issues, and the inherent limitations of the situation. But no matter how hard I try to remind myself of these things, I tend to believe what I want to believe. And it doesn’t help at all that you always manage to say what I want to hear.

I can sense a little apprehension from you. you can deny it all you want, but I know what I sense. Which is fine.

Again, thinking aloud, I really have to realign my work priorities. Been feeling very small very often lately. Just because you are both my boss and the object of my distraction doesn’t justify the delays.

Bottom line is yes, I love you. but I have to remind myself that this, whatever this is, has limits. The speed at which things have progressed just makes it very difficult to distinguish real from fantasy.

In this regard, though I find it endearing that you are such a girl and kulang na lang, you scribble my name all over your notebook and make up the names of our unborn children, let me say this, please don’t call me mrs. That’s not me. that would be someone else. I know you think its cute, but it kinda hurts more than it thrills me. but it does thrill me. imagining myself as that. Especially after dinner in banawe last night. It was nice to kiss you in public. :) it thrills me, yes. But it drives home a painful truth more accurately.

Comments and reactions are welcome and appreciated. Wag mo lang ako dramahan.


his reply: i love you. it doesn't answer anything, but i want you to know that i do.

22 July 2008

6:23 am
good morning. wake up na. you have to be in antipolo

6:42 am
1st time? what was it about?

7:17 am
8am ucc at temple re: ****; 930 **** north**** board; 1 pm office; 2pm **** board; 5pm maybe haircut; 6pm fort with my possible replacement who i will hire as consultant; 7pm fort with boy ********* of p******** management office

7:19 am
di masyado. haha. you got my text - what was your dream?

8:08 am
yes. i love you

me: ok. no need to reply. fyi lang. i really shouldn't worry that i went to this pre-trial without an spa. again, without me having to utter a single word outside of, permission to leave, pre-trial was cancelled. in fact, it will be re-raffled. it will likely sleep another year. :)

[call]

me: *****rail? so kasama mo sm*>

8:40 am
yes

9:12 am
yes

me: i love you sd. :)

9:21 am
why sd

me: why not? ayaw mo?

9:36 am
ok lang. mas gusto ko **

me: i know. sometimes, i want to be more princess than me, kaya sd or be** :)

11:08 am
do you love me?

me: yes. why do you ask?

11:11 am
lambing

me: haha! girl! done with board?

11:12 am
ongoing

me: hahaha! you're thinking of me during a board?

11:16 am
i miss you

me: really?

11:18 am
yes sobra

me: :) go back to the 2-storey 6-bedroom home. will it beala tessi oreta's house, with large entertaining area and lanai?

11:41 am
large entertainment area with large L-type sofa and large bed

me: what part is that? master's? am talking about the first floor. and the master's bath has to have a massive, well-planned closet. don't forget.

11:45 am
everything will be large and high class

me: not too much. it will be difficult to maintain. :) modern asian. zen lines but furniture a bit more asian ornate. ok? :)

me: where are you? no more sinigang. fried chicken and gulay ang inorder sa iyo

12:25 pm
ok. near my house

me: i'll have a cigarette ha. now. no walking in and giving weird looks of disapproval. rules.

me: i had only 3 puffs. didn't even finish the whole stick. fyi. :)

me:i left na

2:33 pm
ok. i love you

me: :) i love you too **. more each day. :)

me: apply na for credit card. so i can buy furniture. so we can move in august 1. :)

2:46 pm
use muna your card

me: what kind of sd are you?! :)

2:5 pm
i will still apply but in the meantime, we can use our cards

me: you still in m*ss

3:45 pm
yes. you?

me: on my way to ******. took 20 min nap after picking up ****

3:51 pm
what are you wearing - undies only please?

me: dom!cute ones, actually. pink polka dots with pink ribbon trimming. matching.

me: this is your last week for mandarin

me: please bring your box for the we roam

me: rumor according to atty *** is that cy*** wants to be ****** secretary and is out to prove that *** is incompetent

me: excerpt from tsn of 1st ***** board: ***: can we have an executive session? only those who are handsome will leave. handsome and beautiful will leave. ***: sir, can we have the corporate secretary? ***: yeah, the corporate secretary. *******: tsaka si justice ano sana ***: justice *******: **** ***: ah, chief justice **** will remain, because we only told handsome and beautiful will leave. so you remain. WAHAHA! you were promoted to CJ nga,pero d handsome! :)

4:29 pm
ok

5:18 pm
from myrna - [sappy quote]

me: bigyan mo ng word of love nad care. :)

5:20 pm
sabi ko lang - hi myrna

me: walang love and care? Gosh. paasahin mo naman ng konti. :)

5:23 pm
kaunti lang. malaman na yun HI

me: haha! kilig na kilig na ba yun? :)

5:25 pm
palagay ko

9:25 pm
are you going to pasig?

me: i don't know. call me please. re: ******

9:50 pm
why are you saying sorry for crying and telling me about your family concerns? i am your friend right? i am here for you. why don't you put ice / cold water on your face. just had pancit for dinner. wala akong gana to eat

me: why not? where did you have dinner?

9:54 pm
carport. ewan ko ba. miss you lang sobra siguro

me: :) you should have come to seeme then.

10 pm
sorry

me: ? why sorry? why didn't ou come to see me nga? tired?

10:03 pm
tired. where are you na?

me: still in *****. will finish bot portion here. and procurement part at home. my gpra material are home.

10:10 pm
i know this is not responsive and will not lighten your workload and will not solve your family tiff, but let me just say I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH PRINCESS

me: :) thank you. what's your sched like?

10:13 pm
tom?

me: yup

10:26 pm
7am office, 9:30 am office ** presentation with iloilo ***** district; 12nn meeting with g***o d*****o with b*** and c****; 3pm meeting at law office; 5 pm meeting re ***** and ******* (again)

me: ok. just asking. will be in *****the whole day

10:31 pm
ok. do you love me? just asking

me: yes i do.

10:53 pm
ok. watching last samurai... yes, again.

me: leaving ***** na.

me: am tired b***

10:55 pm
sleep ka na when you get home. you have driver?

me: yes. thank go for small mercies. i just want to take a long long long vacation

me: i need comforting right now.:-(

11:04 pm
actually, me too i had fun last night.

me: :) ako din. :) so you should've come to visit me.:-(

me: you fell asleep on me again? :-( aren't youg going to ask if i got home na?

11:27 pm
sorry. dozed off. are you home na?

11:42 pm
hello

me: sorry. didn't hear text. got home when i text you kanina.

11:44 pm
are you mad at me or tampo?

me: no. just really tired. and generally whiney.


11:53 pm
have you taken a bath? that could help

me: not yet. i just want to whine and i want you to patronize me as i whine.

12:08 am
i love you

me: thank you. but i want you to patroniz me. say am kawawa that am tired.

12:40 am
kawawa ka naman. sana i'm there to hug you and give you small kisses

me: thank you. i needed to hear that. night sd. :) love you :)

12:42 am
night. love you

me: goodnight b***. :-(

Monday, July 21, 2008

21 July 2008

7:15 am
good morning

me: hi

7:15 am
what time will you leave house? i'm getting ready

me: am awake na. had to bring martin to school. will get ready na in

7:26 am
call you in a bit

[call]

me: what's your day like today?

[call]

me: ok. what you doing in between 1230 an 2? cravings lang naman...

[call]

me: you know there are so many restaurants i want to try. but useless asking you. you don't have time.

[call]

3:19 pm
hi

me: hi. done with presentation? just me and *** left here. **** and ***** left na. did you get my emails?

3:23 pm
just ended. i did.

me: ok. the one of ****

3:25 PM
Ok to send to *******

me: ok.l note i called you sir. :)

3:29 pm
ok. i love you

me: no comment? di ka ba nagulat?

3:35 pm
none. nagulat saan?

me: sa sir. ako di na ko sanay. can you take a call? re: ****

3:42 pm
i will call. pero may kasama ako sa car

me: ok.l don't flirt with me then.

[call}

me: who's with you in the car?

3:59 pm
****** water

me: ok. till what timne will you stay there?

4 pm
6pm

me: ok.l then you're done for the day?

4:02 pm
yes. will all you after for plans

me: plans?

4:04 pm
baka lang we have time later. not sure though

me: for later? kaya mo 3 days in a row? pwd din... hahaha!

4:05 pm
will call first

me: ok. if you say you'll call, please do. :)

me: my maid made spaghetti. yum. will you be in office tomorrow? will bring.

4:08 pm
will be in office 1pm

me: ok.

me: not wanting to deliberately distract you, let me just say that my boobs re so bloated, my nips are always up. weird. last time it was like this, i was breast feeding.

4:28 pm
parang thats an invitation. haha

me: it is. :)

me: going to marie france first. if i were you, i'd rush back to manila, send my driver home, and make plans.

5:21 pm
still in bulacan. call you in a bit

me: ok.

me: i think you should try for 1 week straight, everyday. :) nagawa mo na ba un? :)

5:52 pm
2 days straight 2x r 3x pa lang including last night. 3 days straight, wala pa.

me: haha... 7days, kakayanin mo? :) not bad for an oldie though.

6:46 pm
on my way back. call you as soon as i drop off

me: ok

me: you're not friving now right? what part of bulacan did you come from?

6:56 pm
**** driving. malolos. where are you?

me: 5mins away from san juan. you're very far. if its alanganin don't force it.

6:59 pm
will call you. you came from marie france? have headache

me: yes. if you have a headache, go home and sleep early. am not trying to cancel. i just don't want you to stretch yourself out too thin.

7:03 pm
will call

me: ok.

me: why don't you nap?

7:08 pm
ok

[CALL]

me: i love you **. thank tou for spending ime with me tonight. lalo tuloy ako dnd, if that's possible.

[CALL]

me: Wahahaha! do you know that rez cortez added me as a friend on facebook?

10:05 pm
why?

me: he added me. at first, i thought it was someone poking fun at him. then he messaged me asking me if i removed him as a friend (i don't even remember adding him) so i checked out his profile. looks like its him talaga. bwahaha! i'm frends with rez cortez!

10:10 pm
dnd ako sobra

me: hahaha! ako din, actually. :) its almost embarassing.

10:21 pm
i like kissing you

me: i like just being around you. :) seriously, i wish i could take care of you 24-7

10:33 pm
i wish that too. i want to hug you now

me: :) how much do you love me?

10:37 pm
very muc. sobra. super. very happy.

me: me too. can you imagine sharing a home? not an apartment. a real home.

10:39 pm
i do. i really do. i wish i am beside you

me: describe. how would it be?

10:42 pm
will just take a shower

me: ok

11:01 pm
lying on couch. watching scrubs, my head on your left thigh, you left hand scratching my back and your right hand on my head. small kisses on my cheeks, i'm massaging your calves. we talking about our day. i will tell you i love you princess and you will say i love you **, i will get up, kiss your pits, kiss you all over.

me: hmmm... you still awake? describe in detail. where would we live first?

11:13 pm
subdivision behind ucc, temple. 2 storey house, 6 rooms, small pool

me: corinthian hills? haha... dun ko din inimagine. :) 6 rooms? dami naman. 1 for each kid, plus guest room?

11:48 pm
or gym

12:09 am
sleep na ako. night. i love you.

me: goodnight bert. i love you.

Sunday, July 20, 2008

20 July 2008

8:19 pm
good morning. i jus got up. may i call?

me: yes

[call]



me: you know what, i actually do want to see ****** play. we hear so much about her and her tennis. but of course, thats only possible if your whole office goes. otherwise, scandalous!

9:10 am
1 of these days

12 nn
hello

me: hi. i'm sorry for accusing you of lying.

12:03 pm
i know you didn't mean anything by that. i'm just a sap.

me: yes you are. i'm still sorry. i owe you more respect tha that. be patient. i came from a relationship where there was no respect.



me: what are you having for lunch?

12:03 pm
steamed lapu lapu. sweet and sour pork

12:05 pm
chicken

[call]



me: wil eat first. kaw na din.

12:06 pm
ok



1:24 pm
tagal ng lunch nyo?



me: call me?

2:14 pm
in a bit

me: why not now?

[call]

me: i'm sorry. i was just making pacute. sorry. leaving in a bit. will go to birthday party with ****

2:20 pm
i love you

me: i love you too. :)




me: my butt hurts and my thighs hurt.

2:42 pm
why?

me: i don't know. weird.

2:44 pm
maybe because of the couch thing

me: you think? is the movement different? parang the same lang naman. ell, its good exercise then. hahaha!

2:48 pm
matagal ka on top

me: ya? i don't remember it being particularly long. :)

2:50 pm
3x

me: ya. you haven't been having dom thoughts lately. you used to ask me what i was wearing all the time. sawa ka na?

2:54 pm
i asked kanina. and i have seen a number of your undies. haha

me: well, you didn't see me today so you're missing out on all the cuteness going on.

2:58 pm
that goes both ways. haha

me: :) di ko alam ihihirit dun ah. score ka!

3:01 pm
i'm learning. like the 'motive' think yesterday

me: wait. what's the motive thing?

3:03 pm
mamma mia

me: i haven't seen that movie.

3:07 pm
its nice. may pagka musical comedy love parent-child story

me: will you ever take me to watch a movie. or was that a for show thing?:-(

3:10 pm
i will. promise. as certain as the sunise tomorrow.

me: :-( we can take the first show on a weekday. or should i make an appointment with you pa so you can accomodate me? :-(

3:16 pm
ok this week

me: you want to get a place here in st. francis shang ri la place? its right beside the mall. its at the pre-selling stage so it should be cheaper. move in is in 2009. in the meantime, we can rent a bare studio in eastwood first. if you decide you don't love me anymore before 09, yo can always give the unit to one of your kids. but if i'll really be your k forever... should i inquire?

[call]

3:38 pm
****** champion

me: wow! congratulations! sabi mo kc manalo sha. pinakitan ka tuloy! :)

me: gosh, ****'s shirt is for 6 year olds.

me: am low bat. text me other line, if you must :)

4:50 pm
just got home. where are you?

me: am so stupid. am at the fort but the party is in camp aguinaldo

5:09 pm
hay

5:32 pm
where are you na? camp aguinaldo ka na?

me: yup

me: you have a meeting?

5:45 pm
tentative at 8pm

me: wala 5pm?

5:53 pm
that ended at 5.30 pm. i'm home na

me: ahhh.... ok. that was quick. what you doing?

5:56 pm
yes. quickie lang. flipping channels

me: oh my god. i have kwento. call me if you can... i'm so freaked out!

6:19 pm
call you in a bit

me: wasnt able to mae pagawa spaghetti

6:28 pm
that's okay. will call in a bit

me: ok. please do

me: call me soon! your in a bit was 45 mins ago...:(

[call]

me: ok. the kwento detail is that you're making me ligaw. no news of whether pinatulan kita or not. of course my friend denied it vehemently and said i was such a martyr wife (which was true). she doesn't know about j kc. but i told her na...


me: i'll go to sm grocery na din. so i won't be a total liar.

9:27 pm
ok

me: can you take a quick call?

10:12 pm
where are you na?

me: on my way back to pasig

10:14 pm
ok

10:25 pm
did they smell you?

me: didn't go down na.just picked up kids.

10:27 pm
ok. text me when you get home mrs.

me: i will

me: question. seryoso kaba sa ganyan tease? when you call me mrs or stick your last name at the end of mine. o tease lang talaga? i mean, i get thrilled and all when you pretend that we're married and everything, but are you serous? if you could, would you really marry me? ganun mo ba ako ka love? am gullible. your proverbial foolfor love. i don't want to believe you then have my heart broken. am super deep into this na. am a bit scared.

me: am home na

10:46 pm
if i could, i would. i really love you princess

me: where are you? what did you eat?this is a leap of faith for me al. yes. am talking to you. not some fictional character from tet garcia's imagination. wag mo muna ako baligtarin by accusing me of doubting you. because yes, i doubt. look at my situation. i'm in love with a man who can never be mine. you tell me everything i want to hear, but am not really sure that when push comes to shove, you'll still be there for me. madaling magsalita because all i demand from you is a little of your time and some attntion. but you haven't been tested. and god forbid you'll every be put to the test.

10:56 pm
home. ate spaghetti at friay's. i guess only time will prove al right.

me: hmmmm.....

10:59 pm
what are you doing?

me: you'r right. i don't know what kind of assurance i want from you. but am feeling very vulnerable right now. what am i doing? emoting.l :) freaking out

me: i suppose i need a sign that will convince me am not cheapening myself by allowing this kind of set up. i don't know what that sign is.

me: or maybe we need to slow down. do you think we need to slow down?

11:07 pm
have a headache

11:09 pm
i don't think so

me: ok. sorry. i won't harass you na. airport headache?

11:11 pm
i have headache too. sleep na ko.

me: goodnight. don't forget meds

11:13 pm
done. see you before flag

me: night

11:14 pm
night. love you

me: love you too

Saturday, July 19, 2008

19 July 2008

me: hi. my turn to be your first text. :) will go back to sleep.

6am
good morning princess. i love you.

me: :)

me: if you're still sleeping, no need to reply. i had a dream. i dreamt i left my phone in pasig and my parents saw all your texts and confronted me. yikes!

6:16 am
yikes

me: are you up?

6:42 am
yes. will take a bath. blood test at 7am at home then leave for intercon.

me: ok.

7:29 am
on my way. i'm hungry

me: ok. order food na. will leave in a bit. text when you're there.

7:34 am
parang ako lang excited

me: you are so arte. really.

7:36 am
i know

me: wax lady came late. set appointment at 630. she came at 7. just need to shower quick then i'll leave.

7:39 am
ok. i will call when i'm there for room service

me: ok

8:12 am
1006

me: ok



me: you can come at 130. sit beside jci. that's the available seat.

12:39 pm
ok

me: you can come na. food is so far good.

12:45 pm
ok. just got out of the room


me: where are you?

12:59 pm
10 mins away

me: theyr'e going to see that my thumb drive is named princess

1:23 pm
yes princesss. dami kami bulong bulong

1:25 pm
bakit ka may napkin eh tapos ka na kumain?

me: tanggalin ko?

1:28 pm
NO

1:38 pm
gorgeous

1:43 pm
kilig ako when you called me **

me: work. focus. fules. :) you're such a girl. :)

me: speaking of long term, the longer the lease term is, the cheaper. so you have to decide how long the initial term will be.

2pm
6months to 1 year

me: not all units are available for less than a year. minimum is 1 year. 1 lang ata yun payag as short as 4 months, but serendra pa ata.

2:03 pm
1 year then

me: cancel your 5pm. samahan mo ako.

2:06 pm
cant eh. sorry. ***** TOR due monday

me: if that's your priority, fine.

me: i'm teasing! :) am not demanding.

me: what's with the cranky face?

2:18 pm
i dont like saying no to you


me: look at usec *******'s hair. good boy hair. reminds me of j*** pag bagong suklay. :)

3:56 pm
baduy nga. nerd yan. feeling. naka suit on a saturday

me: bitchy! :)



4:48 pm
saw dean and justice *** ********. extended my condolences. they were buying photo albums for daughter. nakakaiyak.

me: that is something no parent has to suffer through. its unnatural. parents are supposed to go before their kids. i don't know how i'll survive somethinglike that.



4:57 pm
matagal pa kayo

me: maybe an hour. two at the most. 3 out of 4 items na.

5pm
paano your 5pm?

me: moved i to 6

5:03 pm
i miss you too

me: uhm, ok? thank you?

me: where is your meeting ba?

5:09 pm
cpk at powerplant. as usual, i'm waiting for ka meeting

me: kawawa ka naman

me: magaling manlito si cy***. am impressed.



me: where are you?

6:43 pm
powerplant with fam. sine ulit. mama mia. where are you?

me: on my way to trinoma with cousin

6:45 pm
why trinoma? did you go to serendra?

me: yes. very very nice. the nicest. newly renovated. showroom kind furniture. she's willing to go lessthan a year. 103m2. her asking is 86k. but negotiable. option to buy. buy for me na lang.

6:51 pm
how much if i buy?

me: they're going to text me buying price.

6:52 pm
ok. why trinoma?

me: they have a bigger iora. that's where i buy my weekend dresses. the one in galleria is small. where's my credit card? :)

7:20 pm
will apply na

me: haha! :) can my name on the card be princess?

7:23 pm
princess *gr*?

me: sige nga. d ko tatangapin pag hindi ganun yun. :) haha!

7:26 pm
you have to change your signature

me: sige. will show you for prior approval.

7:28 pm
ok mrs *gr*

me: ok... i didn't expect that. :)

7:33 pm
gulat ka?

me: OO! my cousin noticed. i just said nothing.

7:36 PM
Ok mrs

me: you are nuts.

7:41 pm
i'm DND

me: dnd lang? :) i love you. :)

7:44 pm
i love you too




9:32 pm
what are you doing?

me: on my way to pasig. novena for lola. you, what are you doing? finish na the movie?

9:36 pm
yes. ganda mama mia

me: good for you. no one to watch movie with. :) teasing! where are you having dinner?

9:48 pm
didnt have dinner. had merienda in 5pm meeting. what did you buy?

me: a suit, a weekend dress, a saturday joint board dress, and a pair of shoes for me. bought a knapsack for my sister and bras for my cousin. hard to find her size. to say thank you na din for taking care of my kids when my maids left. you're not eating dinner?

9:56 pm
not hungry. harassed with this ***** thing

10:12 pm
i have kwento and i know you will get made - tumaas ang cholesterol and triglyceride ko

me: ok. how do you want me to react? matanda ka na. i can only do so much to remind you how you eat. but if yo don't want to take care of yourself, i can't do anthing. so now, from 1 above normal, super above ka na. how much higher than normal?

10:21 pm
sa cholesterol highest should be 200. before i was 201. now im 230

me: ok. ano ngayon balak mo?

10:23 pm
be good boy

me: sure. sabi mo.

me: i am very angry with you.

10:35 pm
i know. i promise to take care of myself

me: no one else can. no one can keep an eye on you all the time. no one can police your diet each meal. ikaw lang.

10:37 pm
yes princess

me: ganyan ka naman eh. yes ng yes.

10:41 pm
are you still in pasig

me: yes. you?

10:42 pm
home. watching mulan. di ko natapos the other night. what are you doing?

me: novena for the dead. but i can't participate. i can't accept we're doing this for my lola. where you watching? dvd?

10:45 pm
home. vcd

me: ok. i like mulan.

10:47 am
can you call me al?

me: all the time?

10:48 pm
when you say i love you

me: ok. :) why?

10:50 pm
para i known its really me

me: which is PRECISELY why i said it kanina. so you know that its you i was saying that to, not some fictional sugar daddy. :)

10:56 pm
i love you princes. welcome

me: i love you **. i hate to admit it, but i am dnd. ew.

10:59 pm
dnd, pnp, and hoh means i love you very much

me: i will concede to that. :)

11:01 pm
what time are you going home?

me: soon.

11:03 pm
text me when you get home

me: they're planning who will sponsor daily dinners during my lola's 40days. kelan ka magpapakain? :)

11:06 pm
anytime

me: july 26 daw. ok? mark it.

11:08 pm
done

me: :)

11:09 pm
what do i need to do? where is dinner?

me: here in pasig. bring my token. day before, 25 july, is my lolo's birthday. may party din. make sure you keep it free. no meetings.

11:12 pm
i have token already. forgot to give you kanina at ****. July 25 despedida for *****

me: cup?

11:14 pm
nope

me: are you teasing me?

11:17 pm
nope. something i got from hotel room. today is special for me. today or exactly 1 week from july 12, you said I LOVE YOU **. intercon i thus special

me: hmmm... you stole something from the hotel room? what?

11:21 pm
surprise. i had it with me during board meeting

me: what nga? i have no eq

11:25 pm
surprise nga

me: tell me na please?

11:28 pm
stirrer

me: you're funny. :) such a girl. how many did you get? tig 1 tayo. :)

11:31 pm
got 1ang for you

me: am on my way home.

11:32 pm
ok mrs

me: you should have 1 too.

11:34 pm
pag balik

me: so my token of your commitment to me is a drink stirrer. tacky but sentimental. ganyan ba tingin mo sa akin? :)

11:37 pm
that was the smallest item available. wanted to get cup but i had no bag

me: haha! you are so adorable. para talagang j*v*. actually, that last text sounded more like m**t**. :)

11:40 pm
dont i deserve a hug

me: let me think about it. you skipped dinner this week. july is almost over and you haven't taken me to a movie.

11:45 pm
my fault i know

me: at home na. fault? no namam. indifference, maybe. :)

me: are you there?

12:31
yes

Friday, July 18, 2008

18 July 2008

6:09 am
Good morning. Hi. Hello. Sorry. Please forgive me. i love you. i miss you. was not able to sleep. heehee.

me: morning

6:18 am
annoyed and pissed off ka pa sa kin?

me: no na. just assessing myself.

6:23 am
ok. sorry again for neglecting you. won't bug you na muna

6:32 am
may i call? i just want to say good morning.

me: ok

[call]

6:35 am
was crying. heehee

me: why?

6:37 am
sad for what i did and not do yesterday and scared of what your assessment may possibly lead to

6:39 am
wanted to ask about your serendra trip since last night, but i guess that was/is not an appropriat discussion now

me: ano ka ba? i really felt bad, yes. the only thing that will change is how i will respond to a similar situation. was beginning to be presumptious when i shouldn't. yun lang. we can talk about serendra if you want.

6:42 am
call you in a bit. still crying. heehee

m: stop na. bring your we roam later. ***** got us new ones. i have mine na.

6:48 am
your text just made me cry more. heehee. i hate it kasi when i don't make you happy or when i make you sad or i annoy you


7:02 am
may i call?

me: ok

me: am using the globe visibility. you can text from your computer. galing. text back nga so i can see how it goes?

7:04 am
Got it. Sorry again

me: hahaha... its aliw... parang email. :) i'm still trying to figure out how i can forward texts sent to this sim card when my computer is off. don't be glum. the swooning women of **** will get their chance with you later. that should cheer you up. :) sino kaya una sa pila? si *****? :)

7:10 am
Dont think they could cheer me up. Ü just left house




me: bonus daw. :)

10:54 am
Sustento


11:14
Hi

me: hi. is there a outlet there? am about to run out of battery...

11:16
Nagpahanap ako

me: ran out of bat. what was your reply? is there a socket?

11:27 am
i love you

me: your driver and my driver are sitting beside each other. i cringe at what they might discuss. :)

me: did you just say bonus if they win?

me: thank you

11:29 am
meron naman talaga. announce ko monday. welcome



me: sorry. didn't mean to be disrespectful

2:03 pm
that's ok


me:what were you thinking that you slept so late

3:05 pm
you

me: hay... about yesterday?

3:07 pm
yes

me: what were you thinking?

3:09 pm
i failed you

me: grabe ka naman. failed. maybe it was me. i expected too much.

3:11 pm
my fault

me: well,i suppose you didn't know i was waiting. so its strictly no one's fault.l i just have to remember there are limits to what i can expect from you.

3:17 pm
it really my fault

me: what level are we na ba? 3 pa rin?

3:20 pm
4

me: ok. then i have to realign my expectations. yun lang. don't worry about it na. dnd ka lang kaya di ka makatulog.

3:23 pm
why realign?

me: you said 4. so i was not the only 1 who perceived a change. because there was a change, then a realignment is needed. incongruent na.

3:27 pm
i love you very much. welcome

me: :)

me: crap. i couldn't explain why i called you by mistake. m***, and your alias, Mr. Big, magkatabi

3:51 pm
you were just thinking of me

me: was thinking of m***, bold star driver

3:53 pm
ok



4:06 pm
you want to meet up tom. 8 am?

me: ok. where?

4:07 pm
makati. text kita

me: ok. why did you cancel the after sportsfest gimmick?

4:09 pm
i'm tired

me: well, you slept late.

4:10 pm
my fault

me: wasn't going to say that, but yes. was supposed to look at units in eastwood at 4. itutuloy ko ba yun paghanap? i'm asking you if you ar sure you are going down this road.

4:13 pm
im sure

me: remember that for me, this is an issue of commitment. its like we're almost sharing a home. not exactly, i know. but almost.

4:15 pm
i know. i'm committed

me: kaya mo ba? to be committed to 2? i'm fine with my place in the heiarchy. but ikaw, kaya mo? this is a big thing for me. a serious thing.

4:20 pm
i know. let's talk about it tomorrow... i'm sleepy

me: ok. finished na ba? you in the car na?

4:22 pm
games ongoing

me: ok. you can rest tomorrow. i'll be nice to you.

4:24 pm
small and slobbery kisses?

me: yes. whatever you want. :)

4:25 pm
whatever ha. ok

me: except ligts. if bathroom is bright, di din pwede.

4:27 pm
anong whatever yan, may conditions

me: yes. of course. convert to islam na. so you can marry me.

4:29 pm
me too

me: huh? what me too. unresponsive...

4:30 pm
akala ko nag i love you ka

me: huh? i told you to convert to islam.

4:32 pm
ok

me: ok you'll convert?

[call]



me: you still there?

5:23 pm
yes. last two games

me: yikes. after this, you going home or meeting up with your fam?

5:25 pm
meeting with fam

me: ok. when you planning to rest?

5:26 pm
when i get home tonight

me: k. going to eastwood now.

5:28 pm
ok

me: question,when you walk around the mall, do you hold hands?

[call, rarely. if evern, about 2 seconds lang. parang required]

me: why did you feel you needed to call for that. and why two seconds. that doesn't make sense.

5:33 pm
rarely. if ever, mga 2 seconds

me: is 65k too much? what's your budget kc.

5:54 pm
thereabouts

me: ok

me: i forgot to ask, did we win anything at all?

6:03 pm
we didnt win any team events

me: may individual ba? so we lost even the badminton?

[call]

me: when do you want to start renting?

6:09 pm
may nakita ka na?

me: wala pa. the broker usually asks.

6:10 pm
august 1

me: plus, don't you want to see it before you decide?

6:11 pm
yes

me: ok

me: you want some perspective? you said check out oakwood (now its ascott). so i did. their studio units rent out for 250K a month. :) really nice rooms. we can go there tomorrow. they have daily rates.

6:17 pm
what time will we go see? i might have a 5pm

me: was thinking ascott for tomorrow morning. i have an appointment with broker at serendra after board. you want to go with me?

me: eastwood is very interesting. i think i want to move here din. in another building. :) really cool.

6:38 pm
lets check it out

me: ok. tell me when. the furnishing is nice. its 50k, without parking. with parking, add 3k if bare, its even cheaper. will do the math later andlet you know what i think.

me: eastwood looks like its the best option. its near pa your house. call me when you can, re tomorrow.

7:06 pm
in moviehouse. what about tomorrow?

me: wanted to explain what i texted earlier. you said makati in the morning. was thinking we can meet up in oakwood and stay there for the morning. the studio unit is nice. they have daily rates. its practically a hotel with a kitchen in their rooms. very nice. but i'll just go with whatever you want. just let me know where.

7:11 pm
ok. eastwood then

me: eastwood? or oakwood? it doesn't have to be ha. wherever you want. oakwood is not an option for long term. that's 250k a month for a studio.

7:15 pm
intercon na lang

me: ok. sayang we won't have lunch there. meeting up with law school friends now.

7:17 pm
ok

me: if i tell you something, will you swear on my grave that you won't tell? my grave ha. not your own.

7:21 pm
ok. what?

me: ***** made kwento that *o*o daw often leaves his driver n ***lm and drives off by himself at night. only to come back laterin the evening for the driver. aha!

7:25 pm
aha

me: will have a cigarette ha.

8:56 pm
ok

9:38 pm
what time are you going home?

9:45 pm
what time are you going home?

me: i don't know. soon? midnight or thereabouts.

10:02 pm
Midnight?

me: cinderella

10:04 pm
i will wait for you before i sleep

me: you should rest. what move did you watch?

10:16 pm
batman. what time are you going home again?

me: batman? showing na yun? how was it? soon.

10:19 pm
didnt really enjoy. was too tired. will wait for you before i sleep

10:31 pm
didnt really enjoy. was too tired. will wait for you before i sleep

me: please sleep. i will text you. promise.

10:33 pm
will try

me: why will try?

10:35 pm
kasi alam ko you are not yet home

me: ano ka ba. am 33, not 13. please sleep.

10:36 pm
sorry. ok.

10:36 pm
sorry. ok.

me: i appreciate your concern. you're very sweet. bugt you're tired. and we're meeting up early.

10:39 pm
are you drinking?

me: no. and just had 1 cigarette. you had at least 2 cokes.

10:41 pm
ok



me: am on my way home na.

11:33 pm
ok. night.

me: night b**t

Thursday, July 17, 2008

17 July 2008

me: you awake na?

[call]

me: have breakfast. oatmeal. good for you.

[call]

me: i forgot to tell you that someone asked me about the ciac project. wala lang.

7:44 am
who?

me: a friend who used to work with ***. she now works for some singapore firm.

7:46 am
ok

me: if you aren't playing golf or if you finish early, have dinner with me na lang. :-(

[call]

me: you should have gone to this briefing. ***** is makig a killing with rate setting. which makes *** so relevant to him!

11:22 am
ok. i love you

me: ok. that was unexpected. buti na lang walang nakatingin.



me: called *** na. nothing super important daw with their board. skipping it. still in ***. still at item 1 of a 4 item agenda. matagal pa to.

12:06 pm
ok princess. miss mo ko?

me: yes. very. :) your fault. you won't take me to dinner. maski house of minis lang. :)

12:08 pm
will try to meet up later

me: was just teasing! :) you should just go home and rest.

12:10 pm
call kita after golf

me: ok


me: guess where i am? am checking out units in serendra.:)

2:03 pm
ok

me: gosh. you're such an sd. :) have fun. :) don't miss me too much.


me: will go get a massage. will be unreachable in half an hour for about 2 hours.


me: where are you?

6:11 pm
last hole.

me: wow. ang tagal. ok.


me: where are you? i'll just have dinner at home.

7:54 pm
still here. just finished dinner

me: you didn't mention you were going to have dinner there. would have been useful information.

8:14 pm
sorry. ended late. they wanted to eat

me: you could've text so i wouldnt have waited. i had to ask you. i told you this morning that you didn't have to pass by, to just go home an rest. you were the one who said you'd call. you called nga. you didn't say anything naman. you could've text.

8:19 pm
im very sorry

8:25 pm
im very sorry. i love you

me: i don't like being made to expect. especially if you volunteered. i waited. i dont presume you will spend all you time with me. but a text would have been common courtesy. i can pretend it doesn't bother me. but it does. just let me be for now. am still annoyed.

8:31 pm
sorry again kung wala akong common courtesy

me: don't text me na lang if you're going to be sarcastic. i don't need that.

8:33 pm
sorry.

me: in case you think am over reacting, am annoyed because i had a very light lunch and was hungry. but i didn't eat because i was waiting for your call. i thought you were on your way back.

8:41 pm
nahihiya ako sa yo. sorry. how can i make it up?

me: you don't have to. just let me be for now.

8:43 pm
ok my princess. again, sorry

9:45 pm
is it ok if i call?

me: sorry i missed your call. i still have to temper my expectations and my reactions. i'll just talk to you tomorrow.

10:09 pm
i know its m fault pero ganun ba kabigat ang kasalanan ko? just asking

me: i was waiting for your call or text. i didn't want to make you kulit so i waited. i felt like a total idiot waiting for your call or text. you were eating na pala. 4pm pa lang, was hungry but i didn't eat so masabayan kita in case you call. when you said you were done, i had the tiniest slice of cheesecake so i wouldnt be too hungry. i waited till 8 for your text. you want to know how inis i am? naiiyak ako sa inis. but am telling myself its no big deal. pero yes. am that pissed. i text you that am having a massage so that if you call, you won't be pissed that i didn't pick up. i told you to just go home straight an get some sleep. you said you wanted to meet up. so i adjusted my life. then you forgot to text me, or just assumed it was ok not to or that i wasn't waiting.

10:29 pm
i will ofer no excuses. i am truly very sorry for making you feel like an idiot, that you didn't eat, for making you wait for nothing, that you adjusted your life, that i forgot about you. sorry.

10:50 pm
im very sorry. nanliliit ako sa hiya m*t**

me: go sleep. you're tired.

10:54 pm
i don't think i can sleep early. night. sorry again.

11:17 pm
watching mulan

11:33 pm
ok. i won't make small talk anymore, night.

me: k. night

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

16 July 2008

6:54 am
Good morning. Are you at the wake?

me: hi. no. i went home. will be going in time for 9am mass.

6:58 am
sorry, fell asleep on you last night

me: that's ok. you weren't my first text today. got one from ***** and the corsec of *******

7:10 am
I love you. July 16, 2008

me: :) that's early :)

7:12 am
to make up for me not being your first text

me: :) you are really very sweet.:)

me: what's your sched today?

7:18 am
morning at office (decided not to go to **** awarding); 12nn lunch with phil******; 2pm at sulo hotel with ****** moreno; 4pm ***** airport at ucc; 6pm ***** re ******** coops

me: ok. full day ka na naman. why don't you sleep in, for once. show up at the office at 9. you need rest

7:23 am
im up na and getting ready to leave. if it will not rain tomorrow, i will play golf in the afternoon

me: i hope it doesn't rain then. you really need a break. kawawa ka naman.

7:26 am
i agree with you - i look old yet cute, adorable, kilabot and CNB, super

me: WHEN DID I SAY ALL OF THIS?!

7:29 am
i feel it everytime you look at me

me: ah... talaga? ahem. ok. :)

7:31 am
sarap ng weather. sana im beside you

me: oo nga. kaw eh.

me: i forgot. my mom told me to ask you where your branch of ****'s come from. 1 of my cousins is married to an ****. I forgot what province that **** came from. sorry.

7:38 am
my father is a ****** **** from pila, laguna

me: ok. will relay info to my mom.

me: from all the guys i've been with, 3 lang naman before you, wherease me, i'm the 5th, counting massage parlor girl, you're the most different. i feel most connected with you when we're together. hmmmm....

me: what year were you born? 62?

8:07 am
63

me: dragon year.

me: no rabbit

8:10 am
rabbit

[call]

me: office na?

[call]


9:30 am
i hope you are ok

me: sorry couldn't txt. mass. on our way to cemetery.

10:22 am
are you ok?

me: no. am very sad.

10:26 am
i feel helpless. im just here

me: i know. thank you.

11:40 am
this might not be the right time to text but i just wanted to say hi and i love you

me: thank you

12:12 pm
where are you

me: still at cemetery. thank god its not hot

12:15 pm
can you please call me after?

me: ok


[call]


me: di mo ko isasama sa prince albert? :) haha!

[call]

me: i will buy cigarettes ha?

[call]

4:43 pm
hello

me: hi. what you doing? still at board.

4:35 pm
waiting for ka meeting. dapat 4pm

me: its way past, kawawa ka naman.

4:40 pm
oo nga. how are you?

me: ok. able to breathe na. denied to death with my cousin.

4:41 pm
was she insisting?

me: no. she just told me she was giving me a heads up.

me: aabot ka ba sa dinner in makati?

[call]

[call, re arbit]

me: 10 am

7:37 pm
ok princess



me: ICERA talaga. i stands for incremental. icera - incremental currency exchange rate adjustment.



9:04 pm
where are you?

me: psalm. just finished a memo for npc joint board. you?

9:06 pm
having dessert at prince albert

what did you order?

9:08 pm
sansrival

me: ok. dinner?

9:10 pm
steak. sarap

[call]

me: am in my mom's house. i'll text you when i've left.l don't call until then.

9:33 pm
ok. on my way home

9:36 pm
am i the agenda?

[call]

me: ok. i left pasig na.

[call]

me: amu says no recall.

10:03 pm
ok princess

me: you don't miss me. that's an observation. not fishing expedition.

10:40 pm
i love you.july 16, 2008

me: :)

10:58 pm
got emails. exciting board meeting

me: **** am exhausted. this is the 3rd day in a row i've been too tired to even bathe. your fault.

11:08 pm
ok my fault. why is it my fault?

me: isn't everything your fault? that's the rule diba? :) :) :)

11:11 pm
ok. let's sleep na

me: still drafting letter for sec ***** addressed to me and *** corsec. so tired ****. :(

11:13 pm
what can i do or say?

me: nothing. just whining. go sleep. you're tired too. night.

11:15 pm
night princess. i love you

me: last kwento. they were talking again about erap and how his having shacked up with a married woman was his bad luck. he caused her annulment. was thinking you didn't cause anything naman eh. it was this bad already when you happened.

11:19 pm
i love you

me: non-responsive. i don't want to be your bad luck. :(

11:22 pm
you are not. how can i love you not be responsive?

me: non-responsive to my worry that am malas... :( :( :( i don't want to be your bad luck. :( :( :(

11:24 pm
you are not ok

me: :*( :*( :*(

11:30 pm
what does that mean?

me: :*( ? its a sa face with a tear. am not crying or anything. just means am sadder than the usual. :( i want to be your lucky star, not your malas. baka my fault kaya you didn't get ***

11:34 pm
im happy where i am

me: me too. ok. goodnight. will sleep na din. *** really replies to his blackberry.

11:36 pm
night

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

15 July 2008

6:57 am
good morning. sorry fell asleep. my schedule - 830 am ****, admin meeting; 10 am - heart center on **; 12nn - with ***** (and **** i think); 230pm - iloilo water district at ****; 4pm - lwua n **; 6pm - meeting with ******* **** on electric coops

me: ok. may i stay home this morning?

7:04 am
ok

me: where are you? can you call me?

7:09 am
house pa. getting ready. call you pag nasa car na

me: ok


[call]


me: so if you get a place to hang out, rather than checking in, lulubusin mo na pagka sd mo. that will be just too weird.

[call]


8:08 am
love you

me: love you too bert. :)


me: you stil are in admin meeting? spoke to atty. lot. that thing re: ed or *** comm is kalat pala.

[call]


me: what did you order for lunch?

12:50 pm
eel/unagi

me: isn't that bad for you? :-(


me: gosh, if tuloy mo talga getting a place, lulubusin mo na talga pagka-sd mo. you'll have to set aside money to set the place up and a monthly budget to keep it running. haha!

12:57 pm
who said?

me: ok. d wag. i won't look. :-(

[call, "who said" was referring to the eel was bad for cholesterol. no reply to sd on house]


me: there's an *** board on thursday, noon.



me: where are you?

[call]


me: 1. you didn't reply to my texts. 2. my pants don't go with my shirt. arg.


me: i like you bert. :)

[call]



me: call me again after

[call]

me: i'm in the mood for italian. risoto

[call]


me: tapos na mtg mo?

6:34 pm
malapit na

me: ok. text me your plans

6:35 pm
edsa shang tayo. text kita

me: k

me: text me when i should leave

6:41 pm
ok

me: so it starts with the condo, then a car, then a monthly sustento. :) haha!

6:45 pm
mismo

me: ok. u r officially my sd. :)

6:56 pm
just left fort. where you?

me: will just feed my driver. will leave in 15 mins.

6:59 PM
Ok princess. I SNS - sd na sd.


me: where are you?

7:19 just crossed pioner

me: mauuna pa ako sayo.

7:22 pm
ok

me: where you now?

7:28 pm
about to cross shaw. traffic

[call]

me: tell me where. just hiding in the bathroom.

[call]

me: i went to the main wing. on my way.

7:54 pm
sorry


me: i saw your car. :) i love you bert

10:32 pm
I love you princess

[call]

me: here na. about 5mins ago. had to spank **** first. :)

10:48 pm
ok. carried jerie na and looked at mirror.


me: haha... spoke to sab. just don't make statements you don't mean. naniniwala ako. don't call. am with fam.

10:51 pm
doubting me again?

me: no. i just said i believed you. just asking you not to break my heart.

10:54 pm
i won't princess. i have kwento. the ex bf ofmarimar is courting ******. and he asked **** to make intro for him

me: which one? oooh...

10:56 pm
her last bf. don't know name

me: hay! good luck!


me: meds?

11:18 pm
done. what you doing?

me: sitting. doing nothing in particular. You?

11:20 pm
watchng she's the man star movies

me: ok. :) will be going home soon.

11:22 pm
text me when you get home

me: ok.

me: fyi, * took us home again.

me: not yet home though

me: home na. good night sd. i love you

Monday, July 14, 2008

14 July 2008

6:25 am
good morning princess

me: morning ****.:)

6:26 am
did i wake you?

me: yup. but that's ok. :) its nice that you're the first text in the mornings.

[call]

me: :) you know what makes me extra happy? that everyday, when i wake up, you've already texted me. and i also enjoy your early morning calls. i know sometimes, di pwede, but when you do call, it really starts my day right. hay ****, dnd na, pnp pa. :)

7:02 am
you are so much part of my day from the time i wake up to the time i close my eyes to sleep. i look forward to the next day knowing it will be like today. i cherish each day with you princess. i love you

me: :) i lov eyou too sd. :)



me: arent you sending flowers? i'll be introducing you as justice, wala naman flowers. :P) DO NOT COME IN HERE TO DISCUSS.

10 am
ok



me: i swear. i get really nervous when you ask the staff questions like that. what's the acceptable age difference?! crazy!

11:15 am
see age does not matter

me: yes. looks like it doesn't. :) but it still makes me look like a gold digger just out of find an sd! do i look like a gold digger? or worse, they might think am sleeping with you to get ahead at work! arg!

11:21 am
what matters to me is i love you and that you love me

me: :) ok. tama. :) get your speech ready na ha. no concealer. mapapansin ka lang lalo. :)



me: can you call me?

1:10 pm
call you in a bit?

me: ok. re: jemah.



me: what time will you call? ***** **** and i are planning to lunch out.l

1:42 pm
10 mins

[call]


me: where are you? not yet done?

[call]

me: this better cheer you up. i'll just get a gift receipt, in case you don't like it. i have no idea what a pen that matches with a blue suit looks like.

[call]

[dinner]

me: that wasn't so bad



10:19 pm
whew

me: are you ok? call me?

[call]


10:41 pm
thanks for pen. its nice. i really appreciate it and the gesture. i love you. july 14, 2008

m: you're welcome. there's a gift receipt there. there are several designs for that sort of pen. you can check it out if there's one you like.

10:49 pm
im very happy with the gift

me: meds?

11 pm
done. im very happy. im happy i met and saw your loved ones and those who are part of your life

me: ok. :) i want you feedback tomorrow.

11:09 pm
your family is easy to love

me: so are you.

11:10 pm
am i what?

me: easy to love

11:14 pm
i mean i love your family. if any of them need any help, im here.

me: thank you. you're very sweet. but focus on me first. :)




11:19 pm
you still there?

me: yeah. xavier friends still here.

11:22 pm
what time will you go home?

me: dapat soon. tired na din. just waiting for friends to go.

11:27 pm
text me when you get home. i wont sleep until you get home

me: sleep na please. will text. promise. you're tired.

11:30 pm
will try. text me

me: goodnigt

11:41 pm
night

11:43 pm
night princess. i love you

me: i love you too bert. thanks for staying that long. :)

me: home na. goodnight.

12:07 am
i love you

me: love ou too bert. what's your sched tomorrow?

12:08 am
ok. night

me: what's your sched?

Sunday, July 13, 2008

13 July 2008

7:06 am
good morning princess. i love you very much

me: :) morning ****. very much na

7:09 am
oo. di ko na mapigilan. you are up early

me: not up. massive headache. maybe meds. di mo na mapigilan? :) so hihingin mo na talaga ako? :)

7:13 am
bukas. happy 1 day

me: ok. :) gandahan mo suit mo ha. ) will go back to sleep. :)

7:16 am
ok


me: where are you? what are you doing?

9:33 am
just heard mass here in village. call you in a bit

me: ok.

[call]


me: call me when you're here. i'll kiss you, feel you up a little, then you can go. haha.. teasing. bagong gising ako. :)

11:35 am
i know. will call when near

me: ok

11:37 am
happy?

me: yup. :)

11:42 am
akala ko very happy. happy lang pala

me: such a fisher! i am very very happy. :)

11:48 am
yup lang kasi text mo eh. la salle na

me: are you literally just dropping off my cheesecake or can i get in your car and give you a kiss?

11:50 am
drive a bit

me: yey! :)



me: i love you ****. that was a very boyfriend-y thing you did for me toda. especially the laundry. heehee :)

12:22 pm
i love you too

1:02 pm
are you happy part 2?

me: very. sobra sobra. grabe. :)

1:04 pm
ganyan ang sagot. i will believe you ha

me: you should. i never say anything i don't mean.:)

1:05 PM
did you call?

me: no...

me: i smell you on my hand. :)

1:10 pm
i'm imagining your legs

me: ew. they're ugly. don't

1:14 pm
i like touching you

me: :) naked?

1:16 pm
yup. i really like bing down there



2:25 pm
what are you doing?

me: just spoke to sab. they're all coming tomorrow.

me: i really like bing down there - i just read this. you are crazy! when will you make time for me again. should be soon. :)

2:29 pm
patay. did you tell her about cake,laundry and what you said yesterday?

me: haha! just cake and laundry. he was with **** so she couldn't talk

2:31 pm
what did she say?

me: she couldn't say anything nga. **** was there.

me: i love you ****

2:32 PM
i love you princess

2:46 pm
what time are you going to wake?

me: just waiting for planchadora to finish. you going?

2:48 pm
di ko kaya mamaya. i need resbak.

me: hahaha! kaya mo yan. i'll hold your hand through it. :)

2:50 pm
arms around my shouder. and kiss me in front of mom

me: cant put my are around your shoulder. can't reach them. am too short. i'll just greet you with a hug and a kiss on the lips, and hold your hand as i introduce you to everyone. :)

3:01 pm
what are you wearing?

me: haha. haven't changed. same shirt dress. you imagining taking it off?

3:03 pm
you really look yummy

me: give me my 24 hours

3:06 pm
ok princess

3:13 pm
will nap muna

me: ok. me too. dream of me lang. not my barkada.

3:15 pm
ok


me: you awake na?

6:35 pm
yes. where are you?

me: at the wake. my head hurts less. but still headachey. :-(

6:38 pm
miss me?

a lot. P:) tama ba? very didn't seem appropriate. :)

6:40 pm
tama. miss you a lot too

me: you're sill.

6:51 pm
dinner ka na?

me: kakatapos lang. you?

7:26 pm
yes. what are you wearing. i have 8.30pm meeting

me: dress. the one you said i shouldn't wear to psalm. :) meeting with?

7:31 pm
water. what time will you go home?

me: midnight siguro. water na naman? tama na yan water na yan. nakakasawa na. :)

7:33 pm
question. kamusta memo ch**? just asking

me: working on it now on my cheap ass computer.

7:35 pm
sarap cake i bought?

me: yes. didn't i text you i already had a slice? :) thanks sd. PNP ka talaga.

7:38 pm
you didn't. pnp talaga

me: well,thank you for the yummy cheesecake. :)


me: where are you?


me: hearing mass now. still in meeting?

9:19 pm
malapit na

me: ok. you coming to see me?

9:21 pm
yes

me: yey.go to apartment. will bring home ****** after mass.

9:26 pm
time?

me: leaving now na.

9:31 pm
ok



me: nawala headache ko. :) thanks for coming to visit me. lalo tuloy ako pnp. talaga. :)

11:05 pm
nice to hear i have good effect on you

me: hahanap talaga ako ng place ha? ortigas? :) i'll look around first, then let's seriously discuss before committing to anythin. i love you bert. super.

11:10 pm
ortigas or pasig. i love you too duper

me: :) ok. meds?

11:12 pm
done

me: ok. goodnight. see you tomorrow. :)

11:15 pm
night. i'm happy

me: me too. :)

12 July 2008

me: are yo awake?

me: my lola died. on my way to pasig. i'll be in arbit on time. don't worry.

5:58 am
I'm sorry. NO need to go to arbit. Kami na lang ni ****.

me: i'll be there. if they need me, i'll let you know.

6 am
ok. are you ok?

me: no

6:01 am
i'm just here. i love you

me: i know. thats why you're the first person i text. i'm here na. text you later.

6:04 am
ok.

7:16 am
dreamt of you and your barkada

me: what did you dream of? can you take a call?

8:21 am
i don't have a bracelet that matches my brown / khaki attire


me: will just drive around first. text me when i should go.

2:06 pm
penn na lang

me: ok. text me when **** drops you off.

2:05 pm
baka makita ka sa parking ni **** if mandarin

me: exactly. thats why as soon as he drops you off, text me.

2:07 pm
will do

me: ok

2:11 pm
penn na

me: text me where. i parked at ayala museum. can't be too careful.

2:15 pm
ok


me: you were different today. why? better, yes.

5:42 pm
different in bed? where are you na? its raining.

me: yes. in the car na. d ako inabutan ng rain.

5:45 pm
i really feel good when i hug you

me: why were you different?

5:48 pm
sa bed?

me: yes nga.

5:51 pm
want to be different. i don't want you to feel what we have is routine

me: we still did most of the same things. but you did them differently. why?

5:55 pm
what do you mean ba different?

me: different. like if i didn't know bette, i wouldnt think it was you. you used to be tentative, overly careful and unsure. not today. total opposite.



me: hi. family first daw tomorrow. can you guys come on monday?

6:54 pm
ok. call you in a bit

me: its a small chapel. very intimate. yari ka. get your speech ready

8:19 pm
yari ako sa lahat pati friends

me: yup. oo nga. plan your outfit. :) you coming from office on monday?

8:23 pm
office attire. miss me?

me: yup. mass. text you later.

8:24 pm
ok


me: i love you ****. am glad i have you

9:05 pm
i love you princess. am glad you are glad

9:11 pm
sila *** sa monday din?

me: i don't know. have not spoken to them since this morning.

me: what are you doing?

9:21 pm
on my way home

me: ok. why now lang?

9:23 pm
walked around. nag power station kids. what time will you go home?

me: midnight.

9:27 pm
happy 5 hours

me: exag! dami namang binibilang. kailangan ba magbilang? :) you're such a girl.

9:46 pm
i am very happy princess

me: me to. kawawa ka naman. dnd na, pnp pa.

10:02 pm
i admit. i am dnd, pnp and hoh

me: oo nga. meds?

10:17 pm
done. sana im there with you

me: sana nga. hmmmm....

10:24 pm
i miss your kiss

me: me too. :) what you doing?

10:28 pm
about to watch kung fu hustle

me: haha. that's funny. when you taking me to a movie?

10:35 pm
this week

me: i guess you're asleep na. night ****.

Friday, July 11, 2008

11 July 2008

6:55 am
Let me start th day happy - i love you princess. Good morning

me: :) good morning bert. you always start my day right. you're my first call and first text. :) where are you?

7:03 am
home pa. getting ready

[call]


me: are you leaving? wala ka naman pupuntahan ah.

[call]

me: you mentioned the ****, you mentioned class, but not the lunch. why?

10:55 am
just set up after i knew bcda cancelled. sorry

me: wasn't asking in a demanding tone. just curious.

10:56 am
I love you

me: doesn't show

10:57 am
overflowing nga eh

11:34 am
overflowing nga eh

11:48 am
what are you doing?


me: having lunch with **** and ****. they're tryig to console me. majorly disagreed with *** re *****. i will redraft, but will talk to you about it and you better listen.

12:26 pm
i kinda felt there was a problem kaya you were not texting. i will listen

me: ok. rarely am i very emotional about a legal question i am being asked to swing a certain way. this is only the 2nd time.

me: where are you?

12:30 pm
call you in a bit

me: still with **** and ****.

12:32 pm
so i can't call?

me: unless you speak in a gcc voice

1:26 pm
how are you na?

1:36 pm
tapos na kayo lunch?

me: not yet. **** still finishing my food. i over ordered.

1:38 pm
how are you?

me: ok. just upsent that you would doubt my ability to objectively assess a legal question. if i was emphatic in whaqt i was saying, it was because i was upset that your cos was defending ma'am ****, even at your expense. that was personal for me.

1:52 pm
sorry. i love you

me: starting class?

2:03 pm
about to. saw my picture and write up in frontline. thanks again for write up

me: can we sit in?

2:07 pm
nyek

me: ms? i passed the bar the first time!

me: fronton is where you play. not where you bet.

5:40 pm
greet your mom for me

me: ayoko

5:44 pm
ok

5:50 pm
hello. i'm sorry again.

me: i've always felt you didn't trust me completely. that's why your full faith and confidence, or lack thereof, was on my list of gripes at the back of my notebook. another gripe, by the way is ***. let me tell you that i am a fiercely loyal person. fiercely is the word **** used to describe us scorpios. and its true. so it hits a particularly sensitive spot when people doubt that. pero you said sorry na right? i just need you to understandwhy am super upset. so upset i ws close to tears. and i'm not iyakin.

6:07 pm
i feel so frustrated that you feel that i have ALWAYS not trusted you completely. i supposed i shouldn't blame you for feeling that way. i cant say anything else now. this just confirms i have a lot of inadequacies. im very sorry.

me: don't apologize if you don't mean it.

6:10 pm
i know what i'm saying

6:24 pm
forgive me na

me: am not mad naman eh. nothing to forgive. i just have to continue proving to you that you can trust me.

6:34 pm
you don't have to prove. im convinced since start

7:05 pm
hello

me: hi. we' still here. we had 1 more drink. except chris.

7:09 pm
ok. thanks for telling

me: huh? are you being sarcastic?

7:11 pm
akala ko hindi ka na drink

me: am i limited with alcohol din?

7:13 pm
no. sorry

me: stop saying sorry.

7:22 pm
ingat princess

me: ingat? :) ew.

7:27 pm
it might be ew, but i meant it.

me: ok. still at movie?

7:29 pm
yes. im sad

me: why?!

7:36 pm
sad from yesterday. sad about today

me: yesterday, i get. today? why?!

7:40 pm
im trying to hold my tears now

me: why? i hope you're not stressed because of me. unless you're stressed because you've concluded that its getting too complicated and you want to say number one na lang tayo.

7:47 pm
its not that. i don't want 1.

me: so why are you sad? we left na.

7:52 pm
im very sad for what i did to you. please don't say its drama. i hope you believe me when i say im sad and teary eyed.

me: i do believe you. you're a girl. and please know that i am reacting like this becase you are very important to me, and i'd rather get shot than put you in a bad situation. especially not on my watch. i take my job very seriously. you have a tendency to be reckless. and i've made it my job to make sure you don't make yourself pahamak.

8:01 pm
i promise to be better - as gcc, as friend, as boss

me: what?! you're a great ***! you're a great boss! and you are one of the kindest, sweetest and most considerate men i know. kaya nga DND!

8:06 pm
had to go to cr to cry. i promise to be worthy of trust and the feelings you have for me. i'm really sorry

me: nothing to be sorry about.

8:08 pm
this is not drama. sometimes im sorry i am me. dont worry about me.

me: don't be sorry you're you! you're such a great guy! everybody loves and adores you! lalo na me.

8:13 pm
i promise that i will not also not meddle bout what you wear, if you will drink

me: call me. now please.

[call]

8:38 pm
saw yen

me: hahah! and?

[call]

me: crap. i think my brother heard you say i love you. ang lakas ng boses mo kasi.

8:52 pm
what did you say?

me: i ignored him.

me: if my brother heard you, gosh. i wonder what **** and **** have heard. we are so buking.

me: are you there?

9:29 pm
i have not told you i love you in their presence

me: ok. i can't recall. my brother doesn't know its you. your name here isn't your real name.

9:30 pm
what's my alias

me: mr. big. hahaha... from sex in the city.:)

me: why do you seem distracted.

9:46 pm
do you love me?

me: why do you ask? questions like that scare me.

me: yes i do. why you asking.

9:51 pm
i withdraw the question

me: why do you ask? you've asked. you can't withdraw.

9:52 pm
just want to know

me: fishing? :)

9:54 pm
yes. looking at picture you emailed

me: haha! the jeans and jacket picture? cute ko no? you made me fat. election.

9:56 pm
that picture. gorgeous

me hahaha! well... that less ten pounds pa. my goal. that was my pre javi pregnancy weight. i was ultra cute. :) pag naabot ko yun, ewan ko lang magyayari sayo.:)

10:11 pm
i have headache. nagpigil kasi ako cry

me: oh no. that was kanina or now ulit?

10:13 pm
now ulit

me: why? what's wrong?

10:16 pm
general feeling of sadness

me: whew. thought you were feeling guilty and was sad cause you'd have to break my heart and dump me. don't be sad bert. for whatever comfort it may give you, i'm here.

me: sir, may i give you **** on sunday? i'm spending tomorrow afternoon with this guy i really like, and if pagpuyatan ko to, might not be able to give him the attention heneeds. but if kailangan talaga, kay naman. tutulugan ko na lang sha. he'll understand. pwede?

10:24 pm
ok ***4. sunday ok. *** is reasonable. **** is excited about tom.

me: ok sir. thank you. you're such a great boss! i consider myself absolutely blessed i work for you.

10:26 pm
tyson interviewed. ugly

me: what channel

10:27 pm
ch27. tapos na. she looks stupid.

me: duh. she is

me: i'm sending anonymous texts to journalists using my mango phone. :) sent one to arnold clavio. expecting more numbers from media friend.

10:31 pm
what for? tama na princess

me: i'm a fighter. this is how i am. iron eagle nga eh.haha.

10:35 pm
where are you?

me: home na. got home ten minutes ago. meds?

10:37 pm
done. how was dinner? kamusta kayo ni mom?

me: ok naman. she apparently is speaking to me. told her you're making paluto spaghetti. you want to meet her? :) :) :)

10:40 pm
what did she say about spaghetti

me: she said,akalako ba ayaw mo ng spaghetti ko? sabi ko,i already warned you that its made with ketchup and hotdog. ano? hingin mo na k sa magulang ko.

10:43 pm
wil but fortuner 1st

me: maski wala pa. ok lang.:) ayaw mo ata eh

10:45 pm
sama ako sunday sa pasig

me: ok. talaga ha. kaw sumundo sakn from san juan. :) :) ihanda mo na speech mo.

10:48 pm
can you hold my hand when i meet your mom?

me: of course! there's no other way to meet her. just remember, all my dad wants to hear from you is that you'll take care of me and won't let anything bad happen to me. my mom will want to hear that you'll be good to my boys. :) :) :)

10:53 pm
i promise i won't let anything bad happen to you. i promise to take care of ****** and ****. i love you princess. july 11, 2008

me: :) ok. you started the day right. end it with that text. :) good night bert. i love you.

10:55 pm
im really DND. will show it tom. night.

me: :)