11 July 2008

6:55 am
Let me start th day happy - i love you princess. Good morning

me: :) good morning bert. you always start my day right. you're my first call and first text. :) where are you?

7:03 am
home pa. getting ready

[call]


me: are you leaving? wala ka naman pupuntahan ah.

[call]

me: you mentioned the ****, you mentioned class, but not the lunch. why?

10:55 am
just set up after i knew bcda cancelled. sorry

me: wasn't asking in a demanding tone. just curious.

10:56 am
I love you

me: doesn't show

10:57 am
overflowing nga eh

11:34 am
overflowing nga eh

11:48 am
what are you doing?


me: having lunch with **** and ****. they're tryig to console me. majorly disagreed with *** re *****. i will redraft, but will talk to you about it and you better listen.

12:26 pm
i kinda felt there was a problem kaya you were not texting. i will listen

me: ok. rarely am i very emotional about a legal question i am being asked to swing a certain way. this is only the 2nd time.

me: where are you?

12:30 pm
call you in a bit

me: still with **** and ****.

12:32 pm
so i can't call?

me: unless you speak in a gcc voice

1:26 pm
how are you na?

1:36 pm
tapos na kayo lunch?

me: not yet. **** still finishing my food. i over ordered.

1:38 pm
how are you?

me: ok. just upsent that you would doubt my ability to objectively assess a legal question. if i was emphatic in whaqt i was saying, it was because i was upset that your cos was defending ma'am ****, even at your expense. that was personal for me.

1:52 pm
sorry. i love you

me: starting class?

2:03 pm
about to. saw my picture and write up in frontline. thanks again for write up

me: can we sit in?

2:07 pm
nyek

me: ms? i passed the bar the first time!

me: fronton is where you play. not where you bet.

5:40 pm
greet your mom for me

me: ayoko

5:44 pm
ok

5:50 pm
hello. i'm sorry again.

me: i've always felt you didn't trust me completely. that's why your full faith and confidence, or lack thereof, was on my list of gripes at the back of my notebook. another gripe, by the way is ***. let me tell you that i am a fiercely loyal person. fiercely is the word **** used to describe us scorpios. and its true. so it hits a particularly sensitive spot when people doubt that. pero you said sorry na right? i just need you to understandwhy am super upset. so upset i ws close to tears. and i'm not iyakin.

6:07 pm
i feel so frustrated that you feel that i have ALWAYS not trusted you completely. i supposed i shouldn't blame you for feeling that way. i cant say anything else now. this just confirms i have a lot of inadequacies. im very sorry.

me: don't apologize if you don't mean it.

6:10 pm
i know what i'm saying

6:24 pm
forgive me na

me: am not mad naman eh. nothing to forgive. i just have to continue proving to you that you can trust me.

6:34 pm
you don't have to prove. im convinced since start

7:05 pm
hello

me: hi. we' still here. we had 1 more drink. except chris.

7:09 pm
ok. thanks for telling

me: huh? are you being sarcastic?

7:11 pm
akala ko hindi ka na drink

me: am i limited with alcohol din?

7:13 pm
no. sorry

me: stop saying sorry.

7:22 pm
ingat princess

me: ingat? :) ew.

7:27 pm
it might be ew, but i meant it.

me: ok. still at movie?

7:29 pm
yes. im sad

me: why?!

7:36 pm
sad from yesterday. sad about today

me: yesterday, i get. today? why?!

7:40 pm
im trying to hold my tears now

me: why? i hope you're not stressed because of me. unless you're stressed because you've concluded that its getting too complicated and you want to say number one na lang tayo.

7:47 pm
its not that. i don't want 1.

me: so why are you sad? we left na.

7:52 pm
im very sad for what i did to you. please don't say its drama. i hope you believe me when i say im sad and teary eyed.

me: i do believe you. you're a girl. and please know that i am reacting like this becase you are very important to me, and i'd rather get shot than put you in a bad situation. especially not on my watch. i take my job very seriously. you have a tendency to be reckless. and i've made it my job to make sure you don't make yourself pahamak.

8:01 pm
i promise to be better - as gcc, as friend, as boss

me: what?! you're a great ***! you're a great boss! and you are one of the kindest, sweetest and most considerate men i know. kaya nga DND!

8:06 pm
had to go to cr to cry. i promise to be worthy of trust and the feelings you have for me. i'm really sorry

me: nothing to be sorry about.

8:08 pm
this is not drama. sometimes im sorry i am me. dont worry about me.

me: don't be sorry you're you! you're such a great guy! everybody loves and adores you! lalo na me.

8:13 pm
i promise that i will not also not meddle bout what you wear, if you will drink

me: call me. now please.

[call]

8:38 pm
saw yen

me: hahah! and?

[call]

me: crap. i think my brother heard you say i love you. ang lakas ng boses mo kasi.

8:52 pm
what did you say?

me: i ignored him.

me: if my brother heard you, gosh. i wonder what **** and **** have heard. we are so buking.

me: are you there?

9:29 pm
i have not told you i love you in their presence

me: ok. i can't recall. my brother doesn't know its you. your name here isn't your real name.

9:30 pm
what's my alias

me: mr. big. hahaha... from sex in the city.:)

me: why do you seem distracted.

9:46 pm
do you love me?

me: why do you ask? questions like that scare me.

me: yes i do. why you asking.

9:51 pm
i withdraw the question

me: why do you ask? you've asked. you can't withdraw.

9:52 pm
just want to know

me: fishing? :)

9:54 pm
yes. looking at picture you emailed

me: haha! the jeans and jacket picture? cute ko no? you made me fat. election.

9:56 pm
that picture. gorgeous

me hahaha! well... that less ten pounds pa. my goal. that was my pre javi pregnancy weight. i was ultra cute. :) pag naabot ko yun, ewan ko lang magyayari sayo.:)

10:11 pm
i have headache. nagpigil kasi ako cry

me: oh no. that was kanina or now ulit?

10:13 pm
now ulit

me: why? what's wrong?

10:16 pm
general feeling of sadness

me: whew. thought you were feeling guilty and was sad cause you'd have to break my heart and dump me. don't be sad bert. for whatever comfort it may give you, i'm here.

me: sir, may i give you **** on sunday? i'm spending tomorrow afternoon with this guy i really like, and if pagpuyatan ko to, might not be able to give him the attention heneeds. but if kailangan talaga, kay naman. tutulugan ko na lang sha. he'll understand. pwede?

10:24 pm
ok ***4. sunday ok. *** is reasonable. **** is excited about tom.

me: ok sir. thank you. you're such a great boss! i consider myself absolutely blessed i work for you.

10:26 pm
tyson interviewed. ugly

me: what channel

10:27 pm
ch27. tapos na. she looks stupid.

me: duh. she is

me: i'm sending anonymous texts to journalists using my mango phone. :) sent one to arnold clavio. expecting more numbers from media friend.

10:31 pm
what for? tama na princess

me: i'm a fighter. this is how i am. iron eagle nga eh.haha.

10:35 pm
where are you?

me: home na. got home ten minutes ago. meds?

10:37 pm
done. how was dinner? kamusta kayo ni mom?

me: ok naman. she apparently is speaking to me. told her you're making paluto spaghetti. you want to meet her? :) :) :)

10:40 pm
what did she say about spaghetti

me: she said,akalako ba ayaw mo ng spaghetti ko? sabi ko,i already warned you that its made with ketchup and hotdog. ano? hingin mo na k sa magulang ko.

10:43 pm
wil but fortuner 1st

me: maski wala pa. ok lang.:) ayaw mo ata eh

10:45 pm
sama ako sunday sa pasig

me: ok. talaga ha. kaw sumundo sakn from san juan. :) :) ihanda mo na speech mo.

10:48 pm
can you hold my hand when i meet your mom?

me: of course! there's no other way to meet her. just remember, all my dad wants to hear from you is that you'll take care of me and won't let anything bad happen to me. my mom will want to hear that you'll be good to my boys. :) :) :)

10:53 pm
i promise i won't let anything bad happen to you. i promise to take care of ****** and ****. i love you princess. july 11, 2008

me: :) ok. you started the day right. end it with that text. :) good night bert. i love you.

10:55 pm
im really DND. will show it tom. night.

me: :)